So the sheikh has put me on a shifa regime focusing on morning supplications, sunnah foods and sticking by my daily prayers.
I find it refreshing to start my day with the above instructions. For example the Prophet Muhammad -peace and blessings be upon him said :
"During your sleep, Satan knots three knots at the back of the head of each of you, and he breathes the following words at each knot, 'The night is, long, so keep on sleeping,' If that person wakes up and celebrates the praises of Allah, then one knot is undone, and when he performs ablution the second knot is undone, and when he prays, all the knots are undone, and he gets up in the morning lively and gay, otherwise he gets up dull and gloomy. "
Sahih Bukhari-- Volume 4, Book 54, Number 491 (Narrated by Abu Huraira)
Therefore, we should be thankful to Allah - for decreeing that we live another day to witness the daily prayers, especially the dawn salaat as many struggle to wake up in time for it.
But the physical act of getting up and preparing ablution is not the end in our efforts for fajr.
How many people feel an achievement for being able to manage fajr on time. Especially when you are not used the regularity of it.
I want the reader to think about it; if you are someone who doesn't usually get up on time for fajr for whatever reason and makes it up later
and alhamdulilah you get up one morning to find yourself just before sunrise and you do dawn salaat
And I remind myself firstly, but do you thank Allah for this accomplishment or do you attribute it to yourself,
and I think the first is more likely for someone who is used to establishing morning prayers?
If you think about it from this scenario - person a struggles with grades throughout high school and is finally able to get their GPA high enough in their senior year to apply to a good college compared person b who gets consistently good marks so is accepted to multiple top schools.
Some expect person a to constantly reference their past with gratitude and for the b type person to be really up themselves (lol).
But it could be the other way round - especially when it is unexpected, one would context their success on themselves.
Allah hates arrogance, for his slaves to be haughty.
There is a hadith of the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) :
There are three (types of) people to whom Allah will not speak to on the Day of Resurrection, nor will He purify them, nor look at them, and they will have a painful punishment. These are : An aged man who commits Zina (illicit sexual act) a ruler who lies and a proud poor person.
So what I am trying to say - is that the more you increase in worship the more humble you should be.
We all need the grace and mercy of Allah but those who are irregular in good deeds like myself need this reminder more than anyone else.